I’m freaking out.
I’m stressing about trying not to freak out.
I’m getting almost no work done at work today.
I’m trying to only share a tiny bit about the symptoms I’m experiencing so adorable Hubster doesn’t get his hopes way up and then experience my anxiety.
I’m fighting the temptation not to test tomorrow.
At 6DPO, I am experiencing some more “symptoms” I had last month at this time. I haven’t been symptom-spotting for 3 or 4 months because I have been really good about not focusing on them (and driving myself crazy) since I stopped tracking. But I do remember some of the odd symptoms of last month.
Here they are:
- Incredibly painful nipple sensitivity on my left side only (since my breast reduction 10 yrs ago that nipple is more sensitive than the right usually)
- Weird twinge/pulsing/electric shock-type feelings on my labia, of all places!
- Cramps for a few hours and then they disappear (last month they came back stronger right around the time I tested so I really thought it was just AF)
- CRAZY BREAKOUTS!
- Always in the mood, but too afraid to actually have SexyTime. SO frustrating.
All of those are happening now. Which is the same DPO they started last month. But I know that doesn’t mean anything and I’ve been pretty sure I couldn’t get pregnant this cycle so I’m trying to keep myself psyched out. Also, I am flippin TERRIFIED of getting a BFP and know I will be super crazy about testing 2 or 3x/day to make sure the theoretical second line is getting darker, not lighter.
I was doing really well and feeling really good. But this morning, I have hit a wall.
Such is the IF/PL rollercoaster, I guess…