I’m so sorry for the ones still stuck in trenches with me and excited for the ones who have gotten out! Just know my love is with each and every one of you.
As for us, Christmas has been surprisingly easy. Until this afternoon. Hubster and I had sexytime (Eeeek!!!!!) even though it’s not our fertile time. Merry Christmas to us! And then we took a long-awaited nap. Yesssss!
But that’s where our trouble started. Both of us had “adoption-premonition” dreams. Yikes! They were real and they were vivid. Hubster was really upset by his so I didn’t share mine. Suffice to say, we have both lost hope. Shit.
Remember my excitement to adopt? It’s gone. Well, mostly. I still just want to be a mom, but the reality of it is hitting and I think we’ll need professional help to grieve the loss of “our own” children.
And my parents were sweet. They gave each of our 3
monsters furbabies a toy for Christmas. It made us a little sad because we know they did it since we don’t have actual children for them to buy for. But ultimately it was so damn sweet that we are thrilled.
I’m grateful we’re having a great Christmas overall, but it suuuuucks that we’re so sad. RESOLVE encourages us Infertiles to do something to take care of ourselves during the holiday season and I think I’ll be doing just that.
Here are some links to articles that might help you also.