Nope, I don’t know what cycle day I’m on. I know, this is mind-blowing. But I can’t help it. Every cycle I become more removed and less invested. I think I might be done ya’ll. My heart and head are already starting the process of grieving bio children. I know, I know, I know. We’re […]

I’m so sorry for the ones still stuck in trenches with me and excited for the ones who have gotten out! Just know my love is with each and every one of you. As for us, Christmas has been surprisingly easy. Until this afternoon. Hubster and I had sexytime (Eeeek!!!!!) even though it’s not our […]

Lame title, I know. But my “Happy Birthday to Me” title was misleading. Today I turned 32. And this was the first time I was sad about my birthday. I’m sad that I’m nearing my mid-30s and I’m not any closer to starting our family. If anything, I almost feel like we’re 2 steps back. […]

I’m in the middle of my tww and I’m getting really anxious. My period is coming, I can feel it. So Hubster and I are going to have a chat tonight to help ease the anxiety. That chat falls under the “BIG fears”category so I’ll discuss that later. What happens during EVERY tww are two […]

I just dreamt I got my period early and was hanging out with an over-eager future brother in law. Yikes! I feel the pain of a failed cycle so strongly (and have reeeeeally bad gas) so I can’t go back to sleep at 5:15 am. And hanging out with my sister’s fiancé is wierding me […]

I’ve been keeping a pretty positive attitude this cycle. It’s partly due to my fabulous new job that I love. Yes, reading police/CPS reports about child abuse everyday as an Infertile BLOWS, but overall I really love it. I have even befriended the giant pregnant lady. It helps to know she’s in her late 30s […]

…an update that is!!!! 😉 🙂 My CD11 U/S showed one giant follie and 4 smaller ones. I triggered that night and today was O-Day!  Luckily we planned the shot so that I would O later in the day and sure enough, exactly 40hrs later at 2:30pm, horrible pain hit.  I got through it and […]